So I sit here tonight crying.

Emmy has been biting when nursing for the past few nights. Prior she would add the occassional nip here and there and I’d yelp out in pain.

Recently, she’s started biting right as she goes on to the breast. It’s a killer. Typically, I’ll take her off and place her away.

This has been going for two days or so. She hasn’t had a nurse in two days.

I’m heart broken. I never thought that it would end like this. I always figured I’d have that “last nurse” and it’d be when both of us are ready.

Tonight she was crying after Margot tried to put her to bed. I went in there, held her, rocked her, and tried one last time to nurse her.

I also put my finger inbetween her lips and my nipple to avoid another bite. She did try to lightly bite and then started whimpering. It was almost like she didn’t want to hurt me.

Then she stopped and said “down” gesturing for me to move my shirt down.

It’s so sad to know she’s growing up and I might never ever nurse again.