This morning we woke up, got dressed, and dropped Margot off at work. She kissed Grammy and me goodbye and as I drove away I started bawling.

Even though I know that she’s going to take care of her dad in New York City and it’s very temporary (she’ll be home in Saturday) I can’t help but be sad that she’s not with us. I worry about her safety and I also worry that I’m not providing her with the emotional support that she needs right now.

During our almost thirteen year relationship we’ve only been apart a few times and each time we’re apart there’s really a void and I miss her terribly.

Perhaps this is intesified because I’m pregnant, hormonal, and exhausted.

Tonight we went to J&L’s for dinner. L has been great and so helpful with feeding me and making sure that everything is taken care of. We’ve made a deal that she helps me now and I help her when she’s big and fat with child.

After dinner I decided to head home and Grammy and I took a bath together. Now we’re sitting on the couch watching old episodes of Tom and Jerry.

I really don’t know how single moms do it.

I’m exhausted and lonely and really miss my best friend.