I saw my baby’s heart beat on the ultrasound and now…he or she is dead.

I guess I got too used to the idea that this might actually be the real thing.

This late morning I started bleeding bright red with a few clots.   I had a few small cramps but nothing big.    We went to the doctor’s office and they did an u/s at 12:45pm.    There was no cause for the bleeding and the sac was right where it should be and the baby’s heart was beating away and connected really good.    Progesterone came back at 33.

When we got home from the RE’s I went to the bathroom and passed a huge clot which we’re guessing is the baby.

Have an appt for tomorrow to do an u/s and possible D&C.   The nurse has no idea what happened and she’s truly puzzled.   My numbers were good, the baby’s heartbeat was perfect, and there wasn’t a tear.

I don’t understand why we can’t get a break after 9 IUIs, 5 IVFs, and 2 prior miscarriages…

We made it one day further than last time.