So we’ve decided to no longer pursue the infertility insurance thing.   I got my last letter of denial yesterday and after crying for an hour…I decided that I just hate feeling this way.    I have such anger and hatred towards Blue Cross Blue Shield and although I feel that their actions are so unjust — I just can’t fight the battle.

So, we’ve decided that I’ll do a few clomid cycles over the summer using Margot’s brother as our sperm donor and we’ll reevaluate in the fall.   

In the meantime, we’re going to try to get me put on Margot’s insurance.   Through them I would get infertility medication covered and 6 Intrauterine inseminations covered.

Or we might move to the donor embryos in San Diego.

It’s all just a wait and see…I think at this point we need to just focus on one month at a time and pray that it works.